Four o'clock came and went and the Explorer-load of main actors from the far end of the county hadn't shown. Blaze got a text. A phone call was made. The news? Stranded with vehicle troubles. Thankfully, another mom present had a large car, and willingly left to fetch them. Already 30 minutes into our precious time, we tried working on a scene with the SS guys. (Wouldn't you like to practice how to arrest some diplomatic fools?)
Finally they arrived! Ok, late. Late. We'd never make it through the whole thing but we had to start somewhere in the middle so the gang members can change. (Three girls with noble professions in the rest of the play need to make a drastic transformation with only a blanket for a changing room and very little time.) But where was that page--or where they come in-or leave--or what--? And at that moment I drew a enormous painful BLANK. I couldn't think a single logical thought and half a dozen teens at a time were demanding my attention on completely different issues no matter how often I begged "give me five--"
We finally figured out the page, agreed on the set (in which I scolded props for not taking notes) and began practice in earnest. But a general sense of chaos ruled. Lines! What happened to these kids? Suddenly it seemed they couldn't remember their lines, cues, where to exit or anything else, for that matter. There was nothing to do but plug on, wrap up, remind them to show for rehearsal. Then go home, find my way to my dear old garden swing, and cry my heart out. Now the truth will really be out for the whole world to see--in one week, no less. The truth that I don't have a clue what I'm doing. That I can't track the gazillion details. It was the worst practice ever and the play is falling apart around my ears.
It was relatively mild out and eventually I calmed down enough to hear peepers. Peepers, in March! They don't even practice but how sweet they sound. Peace I leave with you, my peace I give to you, not as the world gives...don't let your heart be troubled. Don't be afraid. How can I say it was the worst ever? I have 20 teenagers in my care and they all want to be there. They don't talk back, make trouble, or show disrespect. Sure, sometimes silly and distracted but also incredibly engaged, helpful, interested. They all want a chance to act. I suppose when it's all a thing of the past, they won't remember my faults--probably they won't remember me at all--but they will always look back with joy and say "Remember that play we were in? Remember how much fun we had?"

And that's enough to make it all
worth it, don't you agree?
Look forward! love, Zinnia Girl

